010: Choices + Choices = Life

Ever since I started this blog, I’ve gotten a few emails, but only from two people so far. It’s nice and warm to receive a comment and an email every once in a while, and it’s surprising as well noting that I don’t go around reading others’ blog a lot, and I don’t know how people manage to find my blog either.

I was going through a forum and read someone’s post about others judging him just because he’s single, and still a virgin at age 19. Honestly, the culture is so screwed up it’s making all these young people worry about things they shouldn’t have.Love comes naturally, so does sex. There’s the chemistry, the drive, and the feelings to it. If it’s not your time yet, it’s not. You can be jealous and all but hey, do you want a crap relationship or one that you can cherish, one that you can hold on dear to?

I got into two relationships before. The first one lasted for a month, because I was a lousy boyfriend. It was my fault really cos I didn’t bother keeping in touch and such. I was the a*sehole. The second one was just… let’s just say it was more of a fun thing.

And both the relationship was before I realised that I was gay.

For over 5 years, I was single and I had no sex. But hey, I’m still me! Whatever it is, afterall, in the end, you know, I’m still me. I guess all these self-doubts when you think about your weaknesses too much. You ought to think about things you are good at.

Lazy Day

When I couldn’t be bothered, I combine breakfast and lunch together.

I’m super freakingly lazy but at the same time such a glutton. My brunch consists of a big plate of pasta, an apple (a day keeps the doc far away), one oily cheap donut I got from Woolies and a glass of orange juice. And to add on to that, I had a muesli bar and a chicken and vege pie at 3.00pm.

But I still weight 62kg at 172cm. I know, I’m short.

Oh oh oh, I just had to mention this cos it’s so important and simply lovely. I woke up at 6.00am this morning to the sound of rain! Can you imagine how excited I was? So I cuddled Mr Sleepy-Head even tighter. And he didn’t even budge – proof that he IS a sleepyhead.

Nothing beats being in bed with the man you love the most, on a cold day. The exchange of warmth through the skin is pure bliss. It’s like 12 degrees this morning, so I stayed in bed with Mr Sleepy-Head until 10.00 am. And we watched Step Up, and at 12.15 pm, I kicked him off bed to cook me lunch.

Don’t you just love beautiful day like this?

I wish everyday is as beautiful! Oh wells. G’night world.

008: Top ten cutest man alive

trknight_ausse_6444118_400.jpgI love cute men. Nope, I am not interested in those hunky, muscled guys. I don’t mind them, provided they have a cute face to compliment the body.

Ok, I cannot really decided. There are too many. But at the moment, I think TR Knight is super incredibly cute. In person, AND his attitude!

I’d give up anything just to go on a date with him.

Well, not really. He has a cute boyfriend too!

Oh, Justin Chambers is cute too! I think he’s got this really cute look when he smiles.

Can you tell I’m a Grey’s Anatomy fan?

007: Nothing comes without a price

Some wise man once told me, “you can have anything in life, if you can sacrifice everything for it.”

I guess its true. Nothing comes without a price.

I have dreams too. I have things that I want to do as well. I want to travel the world, I want to have a family, I want to have children, I want to. I want.

But I cannot possibly sacrifice everything I have for that. And I had the choices. Still have. But I guess, life is about the choices you make. I believe everyone has that situation as well.

And that’s why it’s important for you to know much are you willing to lose before you enter a war.

G’night world.

006: Sometimes…

Sometimes, in life, you make horrible horrible mistake.

Or choices.

And you wish you could turn back time and change everything. But the truth remains. You can’t.

One of my best friends was sleeping with another guy, even though she has a boyfriend already. Yes, she made a horrible horrible mistake. And I made a horrible mistake for telling her off. Well, at least I’m being honest.

If you’re my best friend, you have my honesty. No hiding behind the bushes.

And now she’s worried that she might get a STI.

Good.

Humans are stupid. Naive and stupid.

When they’re in love, they lose all their senses and they become mentally challenged! Their brain doesn’t work. Their mind is gone.

Whatever!

The point is, we all know that having unprotective sex with a stranger, regardless of how good looking he is, or how sweet is his talking, is wrong. Because all those sweet talk, and the love and care that he shows you at that very sexual moment vanish into thin air after the sex! That, my friend, is the truth.